Saturday, November 29, 2008
Losing Her, i didn't know it felt like this.
I'm so sorry
I really don't know what to reply Huiwen now.
ok, this is so sad.
where should i start.
oh.
Yesterday morning, when i woke up, yea as usual, i will take a look at Ballball.
She's sleeping, very well.
And mum told me she fed it later (when i called her later) after i left for my 8am class.
It ate, and went back to sleep, as usual, like a pig than a hamster.
So yea, when i came home from school, about 5 plus 6?
yea, after putting down my bag, i went to take a look at her,
wanted to talk to her somehow, about my tests and whatsoever.
and to my horror, i saw a few ANTs!
ANTS!!!
and she's like sleeping there, at the place she usually choose to sleep.
And she wasn't breathing like she always do.
You'er right, she passed away.
I can't believe it.
It was still well before!
In the morning and all..
I called Mum immediately,
yea, she told me she fed it and she went to sleep.
I told her she's dead,
and Mum was like .. 'Candy (my mum's friend) said that this thing must have companion, maybe her companion passed away that's why the owner threw her away! aiya, at least she dead peacefully.'
Okay, after the shock and everything, i broke down.
yea, it's like.... how can it be.
it's so adorable and everything...
i prayed for her to be well and all that,
but she still didnt make it to stay will me.
Why does God let me find her, and let her leave me.
Because she is dying? Why!?
i found her on 22 Nov, she left me on 28 Nov,
not even a week with me!
I could still remember her face so clearly, how adorable.
& how funny she was sometimes when she climbed around the cage.
& when she held the bean sprout with her two tiny hands and ate it like a pig.
& looked at me expecting more food.
& how peacefully she slept
& how funny she is rolling up into a ball.
Yea,
so after a while,
i called Huiwen,
she didn't pick up her phone.
guess she's busy,,
and then i continued crying, and i went to sleep.
yea, that's it.
I lost her.
I am so sad.
Still so sad.
I didn't mention this thing to anyone.
because this can't be done without me weeping.
this is SO sad. really.
Today i saw a hamster too.
Someone brought it to church.
Yea, i almost cried.
but i didn't.
but really, is that it?
THE END?I miss her so much.
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